Across the Ocean

Just a few short days ago, I was at the beach for the last time in Hawaii. It's still hard to wrap my mind around the fact that we are moving back to the mainland. I say "moving" because we are still in limbo (homeless, temporarily).We left Hawaii Sunday night and arrived in TN late Monday night. It's funny,  the entire day Tuesday, I kept thinking it was Monday. I guess I lost it while traveling all day long~
     We are visiting our family and friends in TN for a little bit and then heading to Ohio where we will wait on our home to be ready. Some of our amazing friends are taking us in...all seven of us!!While in this waiting room, I've felt such a great peace, knowing that my Father is leading us.    
     Looking back over the past year and a half of living in Hawaii as church planters, I can testify that not only is God's timing best, but His process is best. He has taken my husband and I on a journey that if I'm honest, some days, I didn't want to be on. Some of my most desperate, loneliest moments have been in this season of my life. I often cried out to God to remove the suffering because it was so unbearable, or intervene the way I wanted Him to. There were times I thought I heard nothing, but then, oh friends, then there were times when it felt like He spoke so loudly from His Word that I looked around to see if anyone else heard! Like clay in the hands of a potter, He is molding me. There are days I still panic, anxiety grips my mind, makes my heart pound out of my chest, leaves me breathless....But, I just remember what I have come to know, He will never leave me or forsake me.