People have told me that I look like I have it all together. Well, I'm pretty sure they would rethink that if they could only see what's going on in my head and heart. Since putting our "Yes" on the table to pack up our family, and move all 9 of us to Hawaii to begin a new church, I've been stretched, challenged, and at times, flat on my face before God. I've heard other church planters who've said that the journey for them, was the most challenging, but most amazing time of ministry. I believe them!
Yesterday, I was face down in my bathroom, crying out to the Lord. Frustrated, weary and worried, I laid all of it out before Him. Sometimes I forget that He already knows what's in my heart better than I do. So many things had taken their toll on me in the past weeks, and honestly, I've been in survival mode. I hadn't taken much time to spend at the feet of Jesus. I had neglected to cast all my cares upon Him and allow Him to lead me one step at a time. The Word of the Lord is true, I trust Him, yet I had allowed my circumstances and some disappointments to undermine what I knew to be true.
Thankfully, His mercies are new every morning, and His character is unchanging. My faithful God, who brought me up out of the pit, out of the miry clay, set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm, has put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God (Ps. 40) He is at work all around me, without my knowledge, orchestrating things for our good. I know that there will be more ups and downs to come, but I just can't wait to see what happens next....!
Oh Michelle! Y'all are so frequently on my heart and in my prayers, throughout the days! Thank you for the reminder to surround myself with His truths, as I know we are going to face some of the same fears and doubts (and have already). I love you, friend!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the prayers, friend! I forgot to add that we REALLY would like to sell our house before we leave. Could you add that to your list? Thanks for your encouragement!
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